Thursday, February 04, 2010
:: What Am I Thinking???? ::


This morning, went to exercise with Cheryl, run and swim, can say i train for triathlon, but i'm too slack to train, yea....

Went to school around 11am, and lesson ends at 12.30pm, oh my gosh, suppose to end around 1.30pm, didn't expect she end class so early, and 1/2 of the class didn't turn up, so sad.

Have lunch with my classmates, talk so crap, bullshit around, insulting each other's race, we just don't give a shit....

1 of my classmate told me about his plan, if he didn't do well for his exam, he will quit school, go NS, study O levels during NS, i was thinking, army is so tired, how the hell you going to study during NS???

While i was studying for my common test this coming friday, my mind just keep thinking about my own future, take over my dad's business, want to be rich, ya everyone wants to be rich in future.

I just keep thinking, and worried in the same time whether i will do well for my exam, will i be able to score good result to get in local University. It's just in my mind, i can't get rid off that shit!!!

I told myself that i need to work hard to achieve my goal, but i look at my attitude, which i think i slack too much.

I can do well in ITE, but why i just perform well in Polytechnic, maybe it's because of the different environment.

I got a few classmates which is ready to quit school if they really fail 1 of the module, they don't want to waste so much time in Poly, even though their result is better than me.

All my neighbours around me, they are all Degree holder, about 10 i think, i want to have the same level as them, but what if i don't have? I will just think, i never put in effort to study hard.

I have prove myself to my parents, my friends, everyone or whatever shit, that from ITE i can make it to Polytechnic, but now my biggest task is from Polytechnic make it to University, which is a very big challenge to me. Although i took the longer path to make it to University, but some people told me"It's doesn't matter how long you take, it's where you end up", but actually, i'm very concern about my age, by the time i finish NS, finish University, i will be around 30, haven't even start carrer? No Girlfriend? Concentrate too much on your school work???

I told myself don't care how people look at you, as long as you think you are doing the right thing, just go ahead, do what you want to achieve. (Self-Motivation)

People said, you can go private University, come on i don't want private University which only study Business course or whatever shit, i only can go for Engineering course, which is either NTU or NUS.

Oversea study?? For fuck??? Waste so much money to go oversea and study??? Come on la, people know you cannot make it to Local University, that's why go oversea and study, ya that's what my parents told me about it.

Well, i shouldn't think so much about it, should concentrate more on studies, time to sleep. Night


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